Chapter 6
September 1990
Dear Harm,
I was so happy to hear
your voice in my helmet this morning. I'm stationned in Saudi Arabia,
with no hope of joining Naple anytime soon, so that was good.
I'm not seeing combat,
I'm strictly on recon and patrol, but I get to fly almost everyday.
And I got promoted to Captain, which means you still outrank me...
Sir !
How are you guys
doing ? Virginie kept talking about Loki, it seems they had a
nice time in Naples (which he proably talked to you about in
details...). I heard him call her « Ginny » several
times, and after talking to my squadron, we decided to make it her
callsign. At first she wasn't sure she liked it, but now she doesn't
want to be called anything else !
The heat is unbearable
here, I hope you have AC on your carrier !
I can't wait to hear
from you !
Fly high !
Nell
October 1990
Dear Nell,
Congratulations on your
promotion !
The heat is unbearable
here too, but at least we have the AC inside and the sea winds to
cool us down a bit.
From what I've heard,
Loki hasn't been in touch with « Ginny », but yes, he
told us about Naples. Tell her congrats too !
It was nice to hear
your voice too, I enjoyed flying with you mostly because you didn't
try to shoot me down this time !
Take care of the
Dragon !
Harm
December 1990
Dear Harm,
The problem with flying
with you is I can't tell you personnal stuff, since everything is
recorded.
Ben is finally out. He
graduated from harassement to attempted rape last month and got sent
to jail. I'm breathing easier ! The Colonel said nothing about
all this, but I know he feels responsible, as he should. I'm sorry
for the girl he attacked, so I started a karate class on the base.
It's for women only, and it gives me a sense of purpose (and
something to do between training and missions). I have five pupils,
Ginny is one of them.
And as for trying to
shoot you, if I remember correctly, YOU were the one trying to shoot
me down after you had Gecko !
A happy new year in
advance !
Fly high !
Nell
January 1991
Dear Nell,
I heard a french pilot
crashed in December, and I got scared it was you, until I got your
letter. I'm glad you're okay ! I'm also very sorry for your
squadron. Losing a man is always hard, I know.
Just wanted you to know
I'm all right. I went to Naples for three days between Christmas and
New Year, and thought about you.
Happy new year !
Harm
February 1991
Dear Harm,
Your turn to scare me !
I had a mission scheduled with you today, and Swan explained to me
what happened. I'm so sorry about Wedge. But I can't belive it was
pilot error, that you screwed the pooch. I've flown enough with you
to know you're an excellent pilot. I hope the guys in your squadron
don't turn their backs on you, that would be so unfair !
Swan told me you didn't
get hurt, that's a relief. I hope you're back in the air as soon as
possible, once you're cleared. I'll be waiting to hear your voice in
my helmet again !
Take care of my
Flyboy !
Nell
February 1991
Dear Nell,
I'm grounded.
Definitly. The doctors diagnosed me with night blindness, which led
me to miss the ball and hit the deck. I killed a teammate, so the
squadron was relieved, if not happy, to see me go.
But I hate it. I hate
being back on the ground. I hate that I can't fly again. I can tell
you that because I know you'd understand. I miss flying like I miss
breathing. It's like they cut my arm or my leg. I have no idea what
to do now with my life. And I feel like I've let my father and
grandfather down. They went down flying. And I have bad eyes.
I'm so jealous that you
still fly. Take me with you up there, be my eyes and ears. Tell me
all about how the skies are. Here in Norfolk it's dull and grey and
cold. I miss the sun at twelve thousand feet.
Take care of my Dragon
Harm
PS : I don't need
my wings anymore, you might as well have them.
March 1991
Dear Harm,
My heart aches for you.
I can't imagine what you're going through. I carry your wings on
every mission I fly, so you are up there with me.
I've been back in
France for a couple of months now, but I have a deployment coming up,
I'm going to Djibouti. Any chance of seeing you there ? Any idea
of what you'll be doing next ?
You know you can talk
to me.
Your friend,
Nell
March 1991
Dear Nell,
I'm at my grandmother's
farm at the moment. I'm staying in my childhood room, and it brings
back a lot of memories. My collection of model airplanes is displayed
on the walls. It's a reminder I can't fly anymore, and it breaks my
heart, but at the same time I have happy memories of making them.
So yesterday, I took
out the family Stearman, Sarah (named after my Gran). My grandfather
bought it before the war, but he was shot down in '43 and never fixed
it. My dad worked on it a bit, with the intention of restoring it
with me, but he went MIA in '69, so it didn't happen either. I
started to take on the repairs when I was in high school, after I
went to Laos to try to find him, and now it's in perfect condition.
A few years back, I
brought it to an airfield not far and it's always available. At
first, I didn't want to take her out this morning. But the sky was so
clear, and the winds so perfect I couldn't resist.
I'll never fly jets
again, I'm slowly coming to terms with that, but I can still enjoy
going up in Sarah. I never thought I could. Thank you for your
encouragements, and your friendship.
I've talked with
someone from the career bureau, I'm thinking law, JAG. Not sure about
it yet, but with my night vision impaired, I can't pilot a ship
either. I'll think about it some more, let you know.
Fly high !
Harm
April 1991
Dear Harm,
I hope the letters we
exchange are not too painful for you. I'm still flying and I know how
much you miss it. Tell me if it is, I'd be sad to stop writing to
you, but I'd do it for you.
I'm glad you're finding
a way to trim your sails. Lawyer for the Navy should be interesting.
We don't have those in France, military people are judged by civilian
courts.
I'm still in Djibouti,
and it's getting hotter by the day ! Four months to go, it's
going to be a long summer !
Take care of my
sailor !
Nell
April 1991
Dear Nell,
Please keep writing !
I miss the sky but I love hearing from you. What is there to do in
Djibouti when you're on the ground ? Do you still teach karate ?
I moved to Washington
to attend Law School in Georgetown. I got a spring admission, so I'm
already taking classes. I think it's the best career path for me, and
who knows, I might even enjoy it one day ! For the moment, I
spend my nights buried in books. Reminds me of my
Academy years !
Fly High !
Harm